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“Deaf Can!” So Say The Rohana Special School Children!

27 Jun

During one lesson in the Deaf Studies class, I showed them a short video from California School for the Deaf’s Middle School PAH! Day celebration. The children were so inspired that they wanted to make a video themselves. I suggested the “Deaf Can!” theme and they ran with it. About half of the footage were filmed by the children themselves!

Watch the children of Rohana Special School proudly proclaim, “DEAF CAN!”

“Deaf Can!” So Says Rohana Special School! from Adam Stone on Vimeo.

The Video Dictionary Non-Project

8 Jun

I made some mention of a video sign language dictionary filming project in partnership with Ruhunu Sumaga Circle of the Deaf. I would like to update everyone and explain that this did not happen after all due to a succession of reasons. But the last reason is the best one of all: the Central Federation of the Deaf (CFD) is making one anyway to be completed in July or August! So I am looking forward to that; some funds will probably need to be raised to supply the school and pupils’ families with as many video dictionaries as possible.

Today is my last day in Sri Lanka but there are still several last-minute things to accomplish. Most notably is the “WE CAN!” celebration of sign language beginning in just two and a half hours. Mala will be filming it so you’ll get to watch a YouTube version soon!

Lunch is at 1:45, and I’ll leave school at 2:30. Then the van departs at 3:00. Mala, Lakmal, Naushan, and possibly a couple others will join for the long ride up (and they get to ride back south!). We’ll stop briefly in Hikkaduwa to get a couple of cool t-shirts with a graphic of a surfboard tied atop a three-wheeler. Sri Lanka, unfortunately, is lacking in cool t-shirts unlike other countries like India or Thailand, so this is quite an important mission for us. Next is a fine dining experience at Pizza Hut in Colombo. Lakmal requested this! Maybe he saw an advertisment somewhere. I’m happy to introduce my friends to the wonders of pizza! Then the airport. Apparently I can take two friends into the ticketing area with me, so I’ll do that and tell them all about what happens inside an airport.

Then the flight to Hong Kong with maybe a three-hour layover in Singapore, and then the world beyond Lanka’s shores.

It’s Not All Bad…

5 Jun

Of course, I don’t want to leave the impression that returning to this country only fills you with deep, unanswerable questions. There’s a lot of joy to be found in every single day in Sri Lanka. In the last seven days, I’ve:

Gone to Mr. Abeygunawardana’s mirith, a house blessing where twelve monks chant all night long into the morning, then are given breakfast. I got to sleep on an unrolled mat on the floor for the first time–this is how a great number of Sri Lankans sleep every night. I slept soundly for the three hours I was allocated (the monk chanting ended at 5:30), but going to sleep at 2:30 in the morning probably helped. And then in the morning I got to watch monks eat! Monks can’t eat after one o’clock in the afternoon, and so giving food to monks in the morning is one of the highest duties one can do in Buddhism.

Monks fingering their oya leaf book.

The attendees pray in accordance with the monks’ chantings.

In the morning, the monks await their breakfast.

In May and June, the afternoon skies are filled with kites that fly dozens of meters in the air for hours, sometimes days. Some of them have strings lined with broken glass as to cut into other kites’ strings, but there is no kite competition as far as I know, unlike Houssein’s The Kite Runner. The boys at Rohana are especially proud of their handmade kites, as I observed last year and now this year, too.

Prasanna with his handmade kite.

Sampath, the new kid, and Dhanushka flying Kumara’s kite

And on a Sunday that turned positively rainy, I got to hold a goat and practice shooting coconuts with a slingshot. We were supposed to go birdhunting with our rubber weapons and cook’n’eat our prey for dinner, but the torrential rains in the afternoon earned the birds a reprieve.

Naushan holding one of Sishan’s goats.

And my turn to hold the goat.

Practicing the slingshot.

Munsif shows off his skill with the slingshot as Naushan looks on.

And then in one of the Deaf Studies class, we made a poster using acrylic paint and our hands.

Supuni, Nadeesha, Chaminda, Kumara, the new kid, Peshila, and Irangika.

On Thursday, Mala and I went to Amila’s older sister’s wedding in Angulugaha. The unfortunate thing about Sri Lankan weddings is, once you’ve seen one, you’ve seen them all. They’re all quite exactly the same; the first day is the white sari and the ceremony which appears to be more of a photo shoot than a celebration of love; the second day is the red sari and homecoming where it’s more of a lunch affair. It is so bogged down with ritual that there is little room for individuality, unlike Western weddings. Still, the food’s a great reason to go.

The wedding party.

Lakmal, Mala, I, and Susaththa have some fun with my camera.

And afterwards we went to the home of Sanjeewani, one of my favorite students, in Imaduwa. I love her family; out of five children, three are deaf. I was delighted to see that the oldest child, Renuka, had thought of installing a doorbell light! No one gave her the idea; she came up with it all on her own. My only regret is that our visit was too short; someday I’d like to live with them for several days as the family is a delight.

Renuka, Sisi the mother, a neighborhood girl, and Mala in front of the house.

Susaththa, Lakmal, me, Naushan, Amila, and then the women in front: Renuka, Sisi, and Sanjeewani.

And now there’s just a weekend and a Monday left. Then it’s off to Hong Kong for a couple days then back home after.

In other exciting news, Mr. Abeygunawardana has okay’d the “WE CAN!” celebration of sign language, to start at 12:30pm on Monday. I expect it’ll just be 30 or 45 minutes, and it’s pretty hard going with the children in creating sign language stories (both of the single-handshape and the 1-10 varieties) as I haven’t yet figured out what the Sri Lankan sign for “story” is! I’m not sure if it exists, and the children have, of course, been severely underexposed to the idea of stories and folklore, both traditional/oral storytelling and through books.

But we’re figuring it out as we go along. I trust it’ll be a wonderful eye-opener for the teachers and the other students who are about to see just what children can do with sign language!

The Observer Effect, Among Others

1 Jun

The thought has crossed my mind that perhaps I shouldn’t visit Sri Lanka anymore after this trip. Perhaps it’s just a temporary feeling of moroseness brought on by the clouds and torrential rains that have pounded Matara the past three days, but there are real issues at work here, both personal and social.

First: There seems to be a faint, undercurrent of sadness surrounding my trip here. The first question I’m asked when I meet with somebody is “When are you leaving?” And I tell them, “The 9th of June.” And it’s the same thing again and again with everybody; my name might as well as be, “Adam June Nine.” As soon as I’ve arrived, I’m already leaving, one foot on the plane. Other than myself, no one seems more aware of this than the school boys.

Last Saturday at the school ended weirdly. I had finished interpreting Ratatouille for the children at around 6:00. Evening prayers are around that time, so I told them to assemble outside. We waited for about twenty minutes for Damayanthi to finish a meeting with some visitor, and it was growing dark. A queer feeling came over me; it was that damp, dark evening of June 23, 2007 all over again and I was about to leave them after nine remarkable months.

I wasn’t the only one who felt this way. After prayers, Prasanna walked alongside me back to the dining hall, and said, “It’s so sad, you’re leaving us now.” I shook my head and looked at at him as to say, “But I’m not…not today.”

“No worries, I know. I’m just kidding,” he said, and walked away.

I didn’t think it was funny; it was unpleasant to have him articulate exactly what I was feeling. Nishan walked past me, saying, “Sad, sad.” And my throat got caught; I felt I was truly leaving them, a group of children whom I absolutely love to death.

Nishantha came soon after and spirited me away from that whole cloud of sadness and parting that was engulfing me at the school, and my thoughts shifted to considering the all-night monk chanting I had ahead of me at Mr. Abeygunawardana’s house blessing.

But still, everywhere I go, it is the same. A month is so short, and I’m not sure if I could do this again. It doesn’t seem fair to anybody, especially the children.

Second: it’s on this trip that I’ve grown acutely aware of “the observer effect” that vexes anthropologists and ethnographers worldwide. It’s when things change because there’s an observer around.

I had a very long talk with Lakmal today while we were waiting out the afternoon rains. The last few times I’ve seen him, he has brought with a group of friends which would include Amila, Naushan, Munsif, and/or Sishan. Those are the same men with whom Ginette and I enjoyed our ocmpany immensely our last two months in Sri Lanka, and I left the country feeling good that Lakmal had made some friends. He didn’t seem to have that many, other than Amila, when I first arrived.

Lakmal and I were recalling the free coffee give-away that the deaf association had set up for the second night of Wesak, and how fun it was to talk with so many deaf people assembled in one place. A thought came to me, and I asked him if he hung out with those men when I wasn’t there.

He said not really. I was surprised and told him I thought they were all good friends. I see them together all the time and have raucous chats. His explanation was essentially that my presence–the white deaf American!–brought them together, but that was it. His life was that he worked during the week and on the weekends he would maybe get together with Amila and Naushan, but not really anyone else.

Things change when I visit, and they go back to normal when I leave. I don’t know, but that just feels wrong and I’m observing an alter reality, personalized expressly for me, and that it all vanishes the moment the plane takes off from the runway at Katunayake. Holodeck, end program. What other observer effects exist here that I haven’t noticed yet? It’s disheartening.

Third: there is this impact that I make on others via either my presence or my intentional actions. When you leave for one year and then come back, you’re able to see what has changed and what hasn’t.

I suppose that in America, a child has so many influences, so many models that it’s difficult to separate each one and determine the extent of change affected by each. It seems a lot easier to do this in Sri Lanka, however. There is a before and an after. Before white people, after white people. Although that isn’t really accurate anymore; non-white people like Indrajit, Nadia, or Mala have made their mark. So let’s say before foreigners, after foreigners (besides, the Sri Lankan sign for foreigner is also the sign for light-skinnedness, so I’ve fallen in the trap of equating both concepts!).

I don’t doubt for one moment that what we have all done at Rohana has been nothing short of a miracle. Rohana Special School ranked second in O/L test results among all the deaf schools in Sri Lanka, right before St. Joseph’s School in Ragama. It remains the only school to have any alumnus currently in university, and it has two. The teachers continue to grow ever more interested in sign language, and have been vocal about their desire for individual copies of the official national dictionary. Deep issues continue to exist with the hostels, but in contrast to last year, these issues now feel resolvable.

I like to think that there are three types of impacts you make. The impacts you try to effect, and succeed. The impacts you try to make, but don’t happen. And the impacts you didn’t intend to effect in the first place. Let me offer examples of each.

The first is Amila. David plucked him out of his 2005 graduating class and quickly determined that he would become Sri Lanka’s first deaf computer instructor. And now, less than three years later, he is just exactly that. He works harder than anybody I know to support his family and achieve his dreams, and I’m grateful we’ve been able to give him so much support on the way.

The second is one boy, Priyankara. Easily one of the favorites of every volunteer at Rohana, he’s an independent and outgoing but sensitive boy with great artistic talent, good study skills, and a mean bowling hand. Yet, he kept saying to me he wanted to leave school early and go work somewhere, earn a living. I always told him he should stay through Grade 11 and take the O/Ls. Look at Rohana, I cried, isn’t it such a great place to be in now? Great hostels and classes and foreigners here all the time.

Despite all my imploring, he did leave school two years early and now works at a bike factory in Panadura. I’m sad he didn’t listen to me, and i hope he’s okay and happy–I thought about visiting him but I don’t really have the time.

As for the third type, let’s go back to Lakmal. Really, I could write a whole website on that guy. He’s one of my best buddies here, and he has made great friends with just about every volunteer that comes through this part of the world.

After he took the O/Ls in December 2006 and left the school along with six others, it was time for him to get started on adulthood and find a job. The problem was, somehow he had gotten this idea that we foreigners would find a job for him, probably as an advertising model. And so he waited, spurning the deaf association’s offers of help, saying that Mr. David would give him a job.

Finally, in late May, Ginette, Sophie, and I sat him down with the deaf association, and he started on his path to gainful employment. His first placement was as a carpenter or something, and he left it pretty quickly after because of “problems.”

One year later, I come back, and he’s secure in his job as a furniture assembler at the Damro/Evero factory, a position which the deaf association found for him many months ago, and everything is going just fine.

And today, as we were sitting in his living room, I looked at him and wondered, what if we had never come? What if we had all instead gone to help some parochial school in northern Mozambique? What of Lakmal, then? Would he have gotten his job that much sooner without that five-month delay because he had thought we’d give him a job? He is doing exactly what he’d have done anyway without our intervention.

And that’s just one person. Hundreds, if not thousands, of people have been affected by what we have been doing at the school. It’s an awesome responsibility. What are the changes, the effects we are blind to because we’re foreigners and don’t speak Sinhala and retreat to our private guesthouse world at night and live many worlds and cultures away? I know I’ve made some mistakes, but are there other mistakes that I haven’t even realized? It’s scary and staggering, and it makes me want to stop coming here, both out of sheer fear and out of ethnographic respect for everything Sri Lankan.

And then finally the fourth point. And with apologies to Lakmal, but I will once again use him to illustrate this. The reason why I was over at his house today was because his mother invited me over for lunch. I’m used to this by now; all these free meals in homes all over Sri Lanka because I’m a visitor.

He met me at my guesthouse and we rode to his home, with me sitting on his bicycle frame between the seat and the handles while he pedaled, like so many others do in Sri Lanka. After the hearty meal, we were sitting in the plastic chairs, digesting rice and fish curry when his mother handed him a folded-up piece of paper. He opened it up; it was all in English and he had no idea what it said.

He handed it to me. After just one glance, I knew what it was–a letter for help. I’ve read this before and know the format by heart now. I looked at the bottom and saw his name on the signature line, Asanka Lakmal.

“Do you realize your name is on this letter?” I asked him. He didn’t have a clue this even existed, and it bothered me that his parents were using him to get to me.

The letter asked for some sort of assistance–what kind, it didn’t say, but very likely financial–so Lakmal could build his house on a plot of land that had been donated to him by the head monk at his temple. That part, I knew; the parents had argued that he shouldn’t live near the sea because he couldn’t hear the next tsunami, whenever that may be, rush in, so the temple gave him some land further inland. And he had told me earlier before the meal that his parents were placing enormous pressure on him to deliver–somehow–so they could get started on construction. He had been asking me minor questions about whether I thought he could work overseas, probably in the Middle East like thousands of other Sri Lankans.

Another angle to this situation which irritated me is that Lakmal has an older brother who’s way more educated, a graduate of Rahula College, the best school in Matara, and knows some English. He could get a job easily and probably make way more money, so why were Lakmal’s parents expecting Lakmal to bring home the bacon instead of his older, more capable brother? Was it because Lakmal had foreigner friends and the parents wished for him to use those connections?

Besides, why now? Building a home takes years and years anyway as the owners save up enough money for one construction phase (say, the floor), pay for it and get it done, then start saving money again for the next (perhaps the roof).

But as always, I couldn’t be upset when I read the letter for help. I can’t be; instead, I always feel impotent. Impotent because I don’t know anything about American work visa rules, Sri Lankan hospitals, or the South Asian charity/aid infrastructure.

I’ve been asked to pay for cochlear implant operations for deaf children and for Samantha, pay for a life-saving chemotherapy treatment for a Rohana pupil’s mother with end-stage breast cancer, or help a married couple get a visit visa to the United States.

And the worst part is, when it involves money, it is usually within my means to pay. The blueprints for Lakmal’s house showed that it would cost about $10,000 altogether to build (a bargain!); the chemotherapy would have cost $6,000. I could perhaps liquidate everything I owned–this laptop, the car, my investments and CDs, and pay for one or the other.

But this, of course, isn’t the right answer. But why isn’t it the right answer? What’s so wrong about giving someone a home or making sure a child gets to keep his mother? There is another answer–raise money! But I simply don’t have the energy for that, not for fundraising. It never has been my thing.

I talked about this with Nerissa many times last year. She said it is a terrible responsibility, like playing God. Do you pay for one person’s medical treatment or provide a daily breakfast for 500 children? Do you just give a family some money, or instead spend the time and energy to train one of them in a sustainable occupation? I don’t know how she or David does it, and I only hope that one day I’ll have the same energy and courage to do the same wonderful things they’ve done to rebuild the entire village below their estate or rehabilitate Rohana Special School.

But there’s another dimension to this whole dilemma. It’s that my Sri Lankan friends are so hospitable to me. I ride on their bicycles and eat their food. They take the time to make sure I understand, and lead me all around their lives. Just today, if it wasn’t for the rainy day, I’d have been floating on a boat down the river with four other deaf men, felling birds with rocks and slingshots. But we didn’t, much to the birds’ relief, and we chatted about how Muslims eat at special occasions–six of them, and only six, sit around eating off a very large plate. When I told Munsif I really wanted to try that out, he immediately offered me an invitation to his home next Saturday to experience just that, and another gesture of friendship was had.

I get so many of these gestures. Their hospitality is overwhelming, and I feel what whatever I have to offer back is so grossly inadequate in comparison. They open their homes to me and show me all around the country; all I can give back is perhaps a meal at my hostel or a few boxes of biscuits.

And then there’s this gross inequality between our lives. I go back and live in America; they remain in Matara. What do they get in return?

I explained all this and presented that question to Lakmal. He said, “So that when we visit you, you’ll help us like we’ve helped you, of course.”

(Dear readers, by now, I’m talking about my relationships with adult Deaf in Matara; I do recognize that I do contribute to the school so I’m not worried about that. It’s more of who gets out of what in my interactions with my adults friends in Sri Lanka)

I said back, “But honestly, you know there’s almost no chance you guys are going to visit me in America.” And what went unsaid here was, “And I’m not paying for you to visit me.”

But why shouldn’t I? It’s certainly within my means, isn’t it? This brand-new laptop I’m using right now is worth about one and a half roundtrip flights between California and Colombo.

Then Lakmal explained that when he was thinking about working overseas, he asked the deaf association for guidance. They said no; it was their policy to not help deaf people leave Sri Lanka for work, or every deaf person would be asking them for help. It would have to be an individual effort One reasoning behind this was that deaf people from other countries were certainly able to visit Sri Lanka; why couldn’t deaf Sri Lankans do the same on their own?

I shot back that it was a grossly unfair comparison and that we deaf foreigners have way more resources–government assistance and free university education and strong disability and telecommunication legislation–than deaf Sri Lankans. And then I went back to the crucial point in our discussion. Lakmal and his friends were helping me so much; what did I have to offer in return? Food? Should I tip them or slip them a few thousand rupees, as repugnant as it is to place a price on friendship? A promise to help them come to America, however ill-equipped I am to carry it out?

I want to think and hope that our friendships are unconditional, and that they’re not in need of my help. They’re all fine; they all have roofs and jobs. And I go for a few days, believing that we really are just that, friends, and then I get a letter, like that one from Lakmal’s parents, and the illusion falls apart and I’m left unclothed, a white interloper with massive resources but isn’t willing to share any of it.

I can’t handle their hospitality with a clear conscience, and it is this point which, with the other three I have written about above, that leads me to think maybe Sri Lanka is better off without me. It’s difficult to imagine going back year after year, going through the whole eating meals at friends’ home ritual again and have them including me in their lives, only to disappear again without giving much in return other than my presence.

And at moments throughout this thought process, I step out of myself, chuckle, and say, aren’t all these quite bourgeois of you? At least you’re lucky enough to have the time and opportunity to mull these questions, instead of spending every waking minute eking out a living in some far-away cinnamon field in Ratnapura District. You should be thankful for what you have and not worry about any of these. Just enjoy the experience and know they love you and think you’re great. Then I step back and wonder which one is the real cop-out–to think about this, or not to think about this?

It would be easier if it was just the school that I had to work with–that, at least, is clear; children are supposed to grow up and leave and new children come in. There’s always something to which I can contribute. But that’s not the best way to experience Sri Lanka. More than anything else, it is the friendships I’ve developed with adult deaf people in Matara that turned my nine months in Sri Lanka into a truly cultural, high-definition experience. Any future trip without acknowledging that part would be incomplete.

I like to romantically think that perhaps this trip will be what I needed to finally let go of Sri Lanka, that country which has so wholly bitten my soul, and move on with my life. But that’ll never be true, and I don’t want to say a final farewell to Ceylon.

So, what of these issues? The observer effects? The inevitably short stay? The unknown and unseen impacts of my actions? The pleas for assistance? I have no answers right now, and I’m not sure if I’ll ever find them.